It’s been over 5 years since the last time I had a peanut in my belly. It’s not that we wanted to wait this long before having another child, but life happens. And we (like many) had multiple failed attempts; many negative tests, frustration and disappointment. But I guess in our case the old saying was right, when you stop trying so hard, that’s when it will happen. I stopped taking ovulation tests and stopped stressing over it, and what do you know?… It actually worked.
There’s a Peanut in My Belly
This means Stephen is going to be a daddy to three. My step-daughter Aubrey, is going to be a big sister again. My son Jaden, is going to be a big brother for the very first time. And I… well, I am going to be a mom to another little peanut!
I took the test on November 13th. I placed the test on the counter and waited anxiously. By the time all the lines had appeared, I quickly looked over at the test and saw that it was negative (or so I thought). I was annoyed, incredibly annoyed. I hopped in the shower and started to get ready for my day, but when I got out of the shower I looked at it again and questioned myself. Did I read this thing right? I quickly realized I had read it completely WRONG and it was actually a positive pregnancy test.
I have no idea why I read it as being ‘negative’ especially considering I had been taking multiple tests for months, so I clearly knew the right way to read these things. But for whatever reason, this time, I had read it wrong. Perhaps it was because I was used to seeing a negative test?
Once I realized my mistake, I couldn’t stop smiling and questioning, is this real? Is this really happening!? The moment was very surreal.
I put the test in a box and placed it in a gift bag. Stephen’s birthday is November 20th, so I told him that an early birthday present had come in the mail and asked if he would like to open it. Knowing he would say yes, because he can’t wait for anything, he opened it and was excited to see that we were going to have another baby!
So how am I feeling? Well, I definitely have mixed emotions. First of all I am extremely excited and I feel blessed that this was in the cards for us. But of course there is also a part of me that feels a bit nervous. I’m already a mom, I’ve done the baby thing. But by the time our new child is born, it will have been nearly six years since I’ve had a newborn. A part of me feels like a brand new mom again, eager to re-learn all of the things I have forgotten.
I’m just hoping my Mother’s Instinct will come rushing back to me.
As for the babies gender. We do not know yet, but we do plan on finding out. So place your bets and hopefully we will be able to share the results with you all soon.
I look forward to documenting this pregnancy journey here on the blog. Stay tuned for an exciting adventure ahead!
